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Is your hemorrhoid an enemy sleeper cell warrior?
by Miley on Mar.29, 2012, under health
Is your hemorrhoid an enemy sleeper cell warrior?
It wakes up every now and then and attacks.
Depression/Anxiety/Stress..and relationship problem..Please help! BEST ANSWER!?
by Miley on Mar.28, 2012, under health
Depression/Anxiety/Stress..and relationship problem..Please help! BEST ANSWER!?
I’m so sorry for the length but please try to help me. I can’t take this anymore and I just want to get better already!
This one event concerning my health made me feel all the negativity in the world. I found out I had hemorrhoids..I was shocked, embarrassed that I had it, scared that I might have surgery for it (but I wanted it anyway since it was the only way to remove it) And all the negative stuff just came together in one big ball and boom.. I just gave up on feeling and I guess that’s what started my whole depression..Everything just sort of blew out of proportion..
It’s been going on for two months now and it’s killing me every single day. I wake up in the morning and a RUSH of negative thoughts fill my head and I just don’t want to go through the day anymore because I know I can’t feel anything.. I haven’t been able to feel any positive emotions eversince the depression began. It’s like my world flipped upside down and now I’m a person that I don’t even know and it’s scaring the life out of me because I’ve never felt this way in my 17 years of existence.
Suddenly, when the depression hit. I couldn’t feel excited about anything. I would go to places that used to make me happy and give me so much life but when I’d step into the room it would be so blank. Like a flatline and it’s hurting me because I have a boyfriend… and I love him so much and I KNOW that I love him but my body won’t cooperate and let me feel the usual sensations and fulfillment when I’m with him. At first I panicked so much about this because he’s the only thing I was sure of in my life and how can things suddenly change over night ? I KNOW myself all too well that I don’t fall out of love THAT easily. Can depression be the cause of this? Because if it’s not I might have to go shoot myself… I really REALLY truly do love him and care about him and I want to build a future with him but my depression isn’t letting me feel the fulfillment and happiness I need when I’m around him or when I think about him and our future together. Whenever I’m close to him or when I hug, kiss or become intimate with him…there is like an invisible WALL which keeps me and him from being connected emotionally even if we’re together physically… Even my CHILDHOOD dreams have been affected.. I’ve been wanting something and dreaming passionately about something for SO LONG and when this happened to me, I suddenly had no emotion or no passion for it anymore.. It’s driving me crazy frustrated! How can something change how I feel about everything I used to feel so strongly for! If I let go of everything and everyone I love right now that I can’t feel anything..when I DO feel something in the future, I KNOW that I will regret leaving the things and the people I love.. Nothing will be left with me if I do that. It’s crazy! How in the world do I not feel for anything I used to passionately be driven with?!
And honestly, I’d rather be unhappy than be happy without him. I’ve thought of breaking up with him before when I wasn’t diagnosed with depression yet.. because I thought maybe I was really falling out of love with him… but I kept denying it because HOW? How could my perfect relationship just turn off and be something so…unreal? It was irrational and unreasonable how suddenly I just couldn’t feel anything for him… I love him so much. I used to tell him that I love him more than myself.. it’s crazy how much I can love someone. And no, this isn’t just “Maybe you’re getting used to him/tired of him…” No. I know myself. I’m not like that. I love him and never was there a time in ANY of my relationships that I got tired of loving or feeling for that person…
I KNOW the things that I want.. I really do. Who doesn’t know what makes them happy? I know dancing, K-POP covering, friends and my boyfriend makes me happy but when I’m around all of that it makes me feel empty and I end up freaking out and crying all the time because I’m just so desperate to feel something for all of them because I know I’m supposed to. I know EXACTLY what would make me happy, who wouldn’t?! But why can’t I feel happy for them anymore?! It’s so frustrating and every morning I wake up and think if I’m back to normal again.. then when I’m not it frustrates me even more because I hate this feeling.. It feels like I’m a totally different person! I feel so foreign and not myself.It feels like a dream because how can I be someone so different when just two months ago I was doing perfectly FINE! I hate this! I WANT TO LOVE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE I LOVE and ENJOY their company and just be HAPPY with all of them and everything that used to make me happy…
I try to do everything to try and feel something. It’s like I take my emotional temperature every 5mins and when I don’t feel something.. I freak out, my chest starts to tighten, I end up shaking and crying because I’m just so scared that I’ll never be myself again.. and that happens a lot whenever I try to hug or kiss him and not feel anything because I KNOW the emotions I feel when I do that and I just FREAK when I don’t feel it.
I’m scared to let go of all the things that I love because I can’t feel anything.. You know when you go to a certain event and you’re like ‘Wth, this doesn’t thrill me, I don’t feel the fulfillment in my heart..’ Would you still go back to that event? No. You wouldn’t. I’m afraid that I’ll get used to the empty feeling with the things and people that I love … And I’ll stay this way forever.
Right now, I don’t have the usual symptoms of depression anymore like the lack of concentration, s
Right now, I don’t have the usual symptoms of depression anymore like the lack of concentration, sleeping and eating problems.. although I still feel hopeless (because of not feeling anything) and the detachment from everyone and everything.. I don’t know what’s happening to me! All I can do is cry helplessly everyday.. I just want my old life back!
Please help me.. What do I do to be my usual self again? Is the depression turning me into someone I’m not.. and I don’t know?
Can depression permanently change the way you feel about things that you love before it happened?
And will I ever be the same again? Will I ever be able to love the things and people that I love and feel the fulfillment and passion towards them again?
I FEEL SO STUCK and I just want this all to end as soon as possible.. Please help me.. I’m so desperate. I don’t know what to do anymore… :’(
Questions about depression? BEST ANSWER to the one who can answer everything!?
by Miley on Mar.15, 2012, under health
Questions about depression? BEST ANSWER to the one who can answer everything!?
It’s a little long but please help have the heart to help me out.. :’(
I came from my therapist yesterday and I explained to him what happened to me.
I had an uncalled for shock from finding out I had hemorrhoids and I told my boyfriend about it which embarrassed me to the enth level. I didn’t even know why. So all these negative feelings mixed up inside me… Shock, fear and embarrassment and I cried it all out on the night that I found out about that stupid lump.
I was afraid that my boyfriend would think less of me (I’m very shallow, yes) that I had that and also if anyone found out.. So, my self esteem dropped.
At one point I just gave up.. I was tired of feeling those negative emotions and I guess my body chose not to feel anymore. I went into depression.
I freaked out that I couldn’t feel anything. I went completely numb and empty for the past month and I would be so worried because I suddenly couldn’t feel anything for my boyfriend! It scared me so much because how could I ‘fall out of love with him’ within a day when I went through so much with him and I know deep in my heart that I love him so much it was just that my feelings and my body wouldn’t cooperate! Even with the things I love to do, it didn’t seem to bring enjoyment to me anymore.. I love to dance K-POP but whenever I’m at the dance studio.. It doesn’t feel the same. It was like I wasn’t myself and I was so lost and I didn’t know what to do anymore… Honestly ? I just want to be in love again.. because my boyfriend is really one of the most important things to me and I can’t lose him to this depression…
My therapist’s diagnosis is that all the negative feelings came together which caused me to withdraw and become depressed and not feel anything because I was afraid to feel the fear, embarrassment and shock again.. He said that I should love myself even if I can’t feel anything so that I can learn to love others again. I shouldn’t over analyze it he said.
I’m known to over think a lot.. When I’m somewhere or in a situation I always go “I should be feeling something now but I don’t!” I’m always looking for my feelings and get disappointed if they’re not there… He said I should stop looking for my feelings and just go with the flow and ignore it.. eventually, my emotions will come rolling back.
QUESTION 1: How do I go with the flow when I have no motivation for anything? I love my boyfriend so much but the depression is causing me not to feel anything for him.. do I break up with him because I don’t feel anything for him or do I stick to loving him (because I know in my head and heart that I do, I just can’t feel it) even if I can’t feel anything and maybe my emotions would fix itself? I also love to dance, like I said but nowadays I don’t feel like dancing anymore.. do I give up on it? I don’t feel anything with regards to big events either! Like my upcoming birthday on March 30, my graduation, college… What do I do? Do I follow what the empty feelings are telling me or do I fight against it? What EXACTLY is go with the flow? If I literally went with the flow right now… I would just ignore the world and want to be alone all the time.. What do I do? I’m really afraid.
QUESTION 2: I just want to love my boyfriend again because he means so much to me. We planned so many things in the future that made me happy and depression wiped it all away from me.. I just want it back. The scary thing that my therapist told me is that when my feelings come back maybe it’s possible that I won’t feel for him again… Is this REALLY possible?! I know so much that I love him.. when I get well from this depression will I FEEL for him again? Please help me out.. I really want to love him and feel again… I’d rather not feel anything if I won’t feel for him when I get better, that’s how much I love him!
If you guys have had similar experiences please share it with me and how it ended up..
I think I have a hemorrhoid, should I go to the ER now, or can I wait and make an appointmnet?
by Miley on Mar.15, 2012, under health
I think I have a hemorrhoid, should I go to the ER now, or can I wait and make an appointmnet?
It would be much less expensive for me to see my family doctor but it’s 4pm and he is not available. Should I go to the Urgent Care or just make an appointment later. There is very little pain, but a lot of blood.
Is low grade fever normal following incision and drainage of anorectal abscess?
by Miley on Mar.14, 2012, under health
Is low grade fever normal following incision and drainage of anorectal abscess?
My mother, 59, with history of RV dysplasia (no evidence of arrhythmia despite multiple 24 and even 48 hour monitors,) congestive heart failure, and urinary retention recently had a large anorectal abscess drained (February 29th, nearly two weeks ago roughly.) She has two thus far well healing (but still very open) wounds in each buttock as a result, as well as a smaller incision directly adjacent to the rectum due to removal of necrotic hemorrhoids.
It is believed that the abscess was present for a matter of months up to a year before it became apparent and was treated on an emergent basis. It is also believed that the abscess may have originated in the colon, and that the possibility of a chronic fistula exists and should be assessed following recovery via colonoscopy.
Additionally, she has a cathetar and foley bag in place due to urinary retention (believed to be associated with the now drained abscess) which will be removed on a trial basis under the supervision of a urologist this Friday (after being in for two weeks.) So we are also concerned about the possibility of a UTI.
That said though, she has been on Augmentin (amoxicillin-clavunate) for 8 days, and her wounds and the surrounding superficial cellulitis looks much better. We have been doing wound dressings with aquacell under the direction of wound care professionals for a period of one and a half weeks following the procedure. They believe she is healing well. Again, her wounds are still quite open, but are shallower and look good. Minimal exudate, no pus, no foul odor. The color of the interior of the wounds is “beefy red,” which we were told was good. There is some minor warmth to the touch, but this has been present since the procedure. There is no greater induration in any one area of any of the wounds than elsewhere, which is a marked improvement as well. Her last dose of Augmentin will be tonight, due to this progress.
Before tonight, her temperature has consistently been no higher than 99.3 sublingually, and 98.3 axially. Tonight it is 99.8 sublinguially, and 100.3 axially. Is this normal for someone continuing to recover from such a procedure, with persisting open wounds? Could this be an early sign of additional or persisting infection? She is also experiencing mild chills.
Naturally, she will continue to be assessed by her doctor as well as the wound care clinic, however I felt it couldn’t hurt to ask here as well.
What do i do..I Cant go to the bathroom…help?
by Miley on Mar.02, 2012, under health
What do i do..I Cant go to the bathroom…help?
Okay…I have NEVER had anal sex so lets get that out of the way first….Now For the past 3 or 4 moths i have been bleeding every time i do poo…..It bleeds and lot and hurts soooo bad…i don’t want to go to the doctor cause im sooo scared that its Just something stupid and im over reacting….I have never had this problem before…And its not hard to pass either ive been trying to figure out whats going on with me for the past 3 weeks ive been looking a wed site to see if there is any similar questions…and nobodies symptoms are the same as mine…I dont know what wrong with me and i don’t think its hemorrhoids….I get scared when i have to go because i know its to hurt…it feel like someone is taking a knife to it and i’m sick and tired of being scared to walk into the bathroom…but I dont want to wait to go to the doctors in case it’s something seriuos… i just dont know what to do…will someone help….please ‘:(
Please help,…hemorrhods or smtn else?
by Miley on Feb.23, 2012, under health
Please help,…hemorrhods or smtn else?
I was suffering from external hemorrhoids couple of months ago.My GP subscribe me cream, told me to change my diet habbits and all should go back to normal.(she checked for internal as well-no sigh of ‘em).
I have change my diet a lot,drink lot of water,eat fruit ever everyday,natural yoghurt,cereal or porridge in the mornings.Reduced sweets to a MINImUM!(i did not have chocolate in ages now).
For a while everything seemed to come back to normal.Lately,maybe 2 weeks i had pains in stomach and problems with constipation even when i eat healtier. My stool is very hard and hard topass.When finished i have a feeling i havent finished and bit of discomfort too.Havent notices any blood, just weird shape of the stool and my anus looks bit weird too,….:(
Why is dat happening,should i go back to the doctor? Cud that be something serious?
please heelp….:(
Why is da
Is it just my anxiety/depression? HELP!?
by Miley on Feb.22, 2012, under health
Is it just my anxiety/depression? HELP!?
I may have depression since I’ve lost interest in the stuff I used to like, I’m disconnected from my emotions and the worst part is… it’s making me lose feelings for my boyfriend. I’ve never felt this way before. I’m sure that I love my boyfriend with all my heart but ever since I lost the feeling of happiness, hopefulness and the like, things just haven’t been feeling the same with him.
But it’s not just my boyfriend, sometimes when I don’t think about him and instead I think about the things that aren’t related to him, it still feels the same. The things I like doing like dancing and playing flag football don’t feel the same anymore…It’s like I completely forgot how to feel about anything! And it’s really starting to scare me… It’s like I’m not myself…
This all started when I freaked out and panicked about getting hemorrhoids.. I thought it was something deadly and ’serious’ (even if it wasn’t).. it was the first time I experienced it and I totally felt humiliated that I had it, shocked and utterly scared. I was asking myself over and over again, “Why me?” And I was just so sad..I let my spirits drop. During that time, I realized I couldn’t feel much for anything since I was just so tired to feel afraid and embarrassed… I freaked out even more when I couldn’t feel anything for my boyfriend. We were watching TV and things just didn’t feel the same all of a sudden…! I cried the whole night once I discovered that I might have lost feelings for him because I really couldn’t believe it. I love him so much, how can this be happening? I asked myself.. the next day, I didn’t feel so well from crying the whole night. My eyes were swollen and I had a slight fever. My nose was clogged and I had a bad cold… I couldn’t smell anything… that’s how it started..
I also feel like I’m living in a dream because I’ve never been un-emotional AT ALL. It’s like I don’t remember how I used to feel…
Sometimes I just worry even if I’m not thinking about anything, I just…worry and worry and there’s a tightening in my chest because I know something is just…not right or missing… Even if I’m NOT thinking of my boyfriend, I still feel worried that something is wrong because I’m not feeling right. Which leads me to think that it’s not our relationship that’s the problem we were so PERFECT before this sh*t started to happen and I’m so frustrated at myself!
People say I’m overthinking everything and I over analyze everything and I just need to calm down but I can’t calm down because it’s the LOVE OF MY LIFE I’m dealing with… I can’t lose it. I can’t lose him.
Also, just recently… I can’t seem to feel right when we become intimate. It’s like it’s so hard for me to concentrate on what I’m really feeling It’s scaring the shizz out of me that I’m not feeling like myself… I know this isn’t me! When we /do/ get intimate, my body feels it physically but emotionally… it’s just blank… PLEASE HELP ME. I’m really scared… I don’t want to lose him because of this!
I really want to gain my feelings back for him and to look forward to the things I used to look forward too. Please help me.. Will it ever come back? If I get better will I start loving and being happy again? Back to my normal self? I don’t want to break up with him just because I can’t feel anything it’s so unfair .. It’s hurting me so much… I can’t believe it when I get near him it’s like I’m so nervous because I don’t feel anything and I hate it…
I don’t want to leave him because what if I become fine again after a while? What if this /is/ actually all just a phase? Then at the end I would have just lost someone that made me the happiest person ever… I can’t risk that. I can’t… I would HATE to hurt him because of this because I care about him so much and all I want is for him to be happy. I’m so scared of losing him to whatever it is that I’m feeling right now!
And I want to be happy too… with him… please help me :’(
It’s been at least 3 weeks..
Please help!!!! I don’t have money to see a doctor and I need help?
by Miley on Feb.21, 2012, under health
Please help!!!! I don\’t have money to see a doctor and I need help?
I think I have STDs I have purple bumps around my anus and it’s bruised. Could this be an STD or hemorrhoid?
is fresh young coconut water bad for you to drink while you are having bad hemorrhoids ?
by Miley on Feb.10, 2012, under health
is fresh young coconut water bad for you to drink while you are having bad hemorrhoids ?
I remember reading that fact from some website but im not really sure. I thought young coconut water does have fiber and it supposes to help with hemorrhoids. Anyone have any knowledge about this ? Please help …. since im pregnant , would the hemorrhoids get worse from drinking coconut water if it is really bad?